I want different things out of gaming at different times, sometimes at the same times. Engagement, escape, social time, mechanical exploration, commitment, show-boating, art, and much more I’m sure.

Sometimes these things clash. I get upset when people flake, but then sometimes I half-ass my prep or don’t care halfway through a campaign. Sometimes I only want to sit at a table with grognards so we can all really get into the shit. Other times those tables piss me off because I want to play with new players.

It’s hard to find the right mix, when I’m also a variable factor.