For me there is a thing: I often don’t like theory, or talking about games with people I don’t play with.

And yet, as you may have noticed, I do it a fucking lot. A lot lot.

It’s because, I think, I love playing games so much that I both want to do better at it — which part of me believes I can do by understanding it — and want to be able to be in the penumbra of that glow even when not doing it.

So I talk and think about theory as like non-lonely lonely fun. It’s not something I usually actually like much, but I do it to feel closer to play and hopefully (maybe, it’s debatable) make the games I do play better.