Dude I’m having all the same feelings. It sucks and it’s unproductive and, for me at least, utterly self indulgent. Like what I’m doing is so very important.

Which it isn’t, and that’s a relief! It’s just important to me. I mean I’m excited and in a good place to get it done, but grappling with the fact that it’s honest-to-God unimportant helps because it means the consequences of failure are, at worst, that I learned a hell of a lot about the process for next time.